Mom Dad Part 1

Mom, Dad.. Maybe i just can say this annoying things by blog.

I don't know who am i really.
I don't know what is love.
I don't know my feeling anymore.

I'm different, mom, dad.
i have try, but i think i can't and i won't ..
Because i don't want to hurt someone who really love me.

I know what is hurt really
Every single part of my heart broken slowly
why this tears come out when i learn to ikhlas

Many annoying things in my mind alter ego
i want my self back
But it is difficult, i really don't know how to continue this story.
I'm crying a lot mom, dad.
I always dissapointed with my self and another me.

Mom, dad... Please!!
Trust me, I'll be back..
I will make you proud of my true self.

I have to find my self officially
Keep prays and try to raise when i fall
The confession of my heart is about i miss you so much mom, dad.

I know you show me, your best thing in my life
I know you give me everything that i need
I know the time make us separate but believe me i just need alone
I know this blog things so sucks, i use english, many words, too much, etc..

Okay let's go to the point.
Sorry if i completely hidden from earth surface,
I'm hummiliating my self and you as my parents.

I love someone mom, dad.
Someone hurt me mom, dad.
I'm not okay mom, dad.
I want to crying on your shoulder mom, dad.
Please hug me mom, dad.
I just want to see the perfect family like they have.
I can't remember when we go to somewhere and happy-ing then laugh together.
I believe with ​اَللّه , ​اَللّه have a plan and happy ending in our family.

Sorry I'm complining now.
Mom, dad, why you never believe me?
Mom, dad, why you never give me a hug when i feel lonely?
Mom, dad, where have you been when i want to tell i love someone and someone hurt me a lot then i cry?
Mom, dad, which am i really?
Mom, dad, what are you doing?
Mom, dad, are you feeling what i feel?
Mom, dad, do you have time for me?
Mom, dad, I'm sickin tired of my life now.
Mom, dad, why are they make a revenge on me?
Mom, dad, why you didn't kill me since me in baby?
Mom, dad, i was raped by someone in 2010, do you know that?
Mom, dad, i always thinking about you.
Mom, dad, i hate being like this, man in the woman's feeling or woman in the man's body. I'm stuck.
Mom, dad, let me go.
Mom, dad, thanks for make me life until now.
Mom, dad, you teach me how can understand about the different really are.
Mom, dad, help and save me with your prays and support.
Mom, dad, don't forget to say thanks each other and give the warm kiss each other too.

See you, in the next blog.
Love you mom, dad or dad, mom.
Don't fight because that's just word.
(˘⌣˘)ε˘`) ( ”˘)зε(˘` ) ( ◦˘ З(◦'ںˉ◦)