BLUE ROSE English Version

Rewind, back and hold back. Hold back its time. Restrained and always backwards. But in a night not berhiaskan moon, cold heart attack. Specific to my eyes in an image that deceive all those who see. In the image, I, orangtuaku second, and second kakaku, looks perfect, but it still can not berkelit that there is something very strike. Not the ink or anything, but a problem which is very large. Look it up to the dam the water flows out to disgorge to the heart. I am sorry I always lurk in the mask. Lie no end. Fishing all unrest and concerns. But all is not quite like me. I do not want it. Myself as a butterfly flying and continue to fly clear of the place where he was born and find something that is sweet as nectar. Viewing who is always around to act without a brain. So many bills, and the flow can not diutuhkan again.
The story is like this. No free or bridled in the silence that brings loneliness, without the full happiness in front of the eyes. Is not any. Changed and continues to be a new change in it every day, does not and will not always like what we want. May be a happy time but it will hurt or injure. God did not hear all permintaanku. He is not deaf, but he chose. I Memilihkan a decision. But this is my life. Why he took the intervention? What is God because he was my?

Do not know all of you to the existence of creatures like me who expect a miracle in the quiet night like this now. Separate from reality, which is always painful. About life, stories, injury, love and a heart that disordered. Although not culminate, but try to find the gap in the curb that freeze my steps. I own and menyepi on edge. A real pain that is not to be divided by anyone. I was born for what and who? Questions that never missed a glance. I fall asleep and dream

Past that have been my grave as if to rise and menyeruak into life again. All that I choose not mean more. Any of the forward stop me in a while. Never again voiced and never again take part in his life. I am wrong and I am always wrong, but give little chance to improve it. although all of them impossible. People, just the wind blowing jump sport of running empty in my dark dreams. Love is just biasan of heart that require a fine for strength, and I do not need it.


Morning brings far my dream. I awakened. Eyes open. I is not ready to bear the burden and open the sheet on this day. I cover up again and change all that is in otakku. Let me feel that all of them. My legs were rigid, never deceive me. Repeated only once and will continue to recur. I do not recall clearly. I is not a good reminder. Half trying to remember the dead, still can not. All it has occurred. Yes never. Heart is not able to hoodwink his illness. but the mask is able to cover the wound that is implicit in and almost did not culminate.

Cover up again in the school

He is worthy of me, and I do not deserve when forced. My relakan entirely up to my despair has brought much wind. I have no power whatsoever. Which has involved only after a tender to its heart. Injury and continue in-depth but this is all a sick kubanggakan. No need to show enough in the hide. Although it seems difficult but it should be. Easy to say and its always difficult dilakukan.Bermimpi about everything that makes my ashes. gust wind and disappeared.

"Why you late?" Ask Teacher


"Hm ... that teachers' car broke down ..." jawabku. And he seems to accept without question my reasons for it again, I immediately sat in the back corner. Is this the best in my life? Always wear a mask and will forever wear a mask. Hypocrites. I just do not want people to know what kulakukan, and that I feel is happening in my life at this time. The most I hate is losing, and I merelakan mask so I do not lose anything that was not fair ignites in ragaku. "Tomorrow so ga?" Lily membuyarkan lamunanku.

"Ha .." I answered.
"Tomorrow is a road?" I nod. "Insya GOD." The very edge of the flash from this liar. I went with the other without considering the other person with me. Everything has been a criticism terlewat and heart. Rebelled in drowsiness and a very large. "Rossa!" I awakened from the bottom half sadarku. A dream world that we always know.
"Hah .. bu what? "of the soul and ignites ragaku not. I try to rise up and open my eyes to narrow.
"You sleep well?" I shake. "And ..?"
"More visions of world peace, bu. Had the second world war did not happen yah bu. "He nod, although very reasonable for me but there is a trusted by mother Daisy. Subject history is always boring. Float in the middle of loneliness in the corner without a laugh or cry. Finding a place for comfortable and safe hiding for a dream. Buzzer sounds. The rest has come in later. Sometimes my energy when eaten out of hunger because running out of fuel to run every seconds of life. Any attempt to rise from the ditch.

Roses, Iris and Jasmine to come to my class. See all corners of the class except me. "Liat tuh temen lo. Ngapain he here? "I said no. Step is slowly disappearing. "Sa, you are still sad at the same kick as they are?"

"I don’t know!" I go from the corner and step out the door, welcoming my input sheet is the same as day-to-day yesterday. Not ravish. What with the scratches sembilu. Although only of bamboo, but it's the same as scratches with steel or iron. Standing in the midst of laughter and casual menjadikanku not worth most people around the world. Who have never owned and never kumiliki. I grateful for all this time the dream menghantarkanku kehamparan the stars that light. Keraguanku indeed sometimes knock my love for each flow. Draw breath and remove them. Hope this is a heart patient, such as yesterday.

Everything feels really fast. Shortly be in school and come home again himself. Walk out the class. "Sa, tomorrow I should be so!" I just smiled. Tomorrow is just waiting. Tomorrow is just keterpaksaan. Tomorrow is just tomorrow. A dream that tertatih fly string of words in really. Not able to unify because of its kerumitannya and ketakutannya. Achieved only as a dream without reality. Despite obstacles prevented. Strength will be there. Songs of the goddess is the trust that is capable of destroying the chain of life, just lost the will. Still too far for any end in despair and mimpiku to realize every dream become real. In fact it seems all a slip in the waste full gelimangan sin.


a walk yesterday with that yesterday also. Nothing changed. Angkot a car and own the same. There is no one way with me. Will forever even though I own ketakberdayaan akan live in?
Sesampainya at home, I only showed the face exhaustion. Entrance room, merapihkan themselves and change clothes. Lelahku never be. I go to open a table and cover food. Empty, just empty. I do not terkajut. Ordinariness. I was in fact not in dreamland. Be very reasonable if they were not considered as I have. Berjuta poems have been written on the sheet-sheet of white paper and no results. Just as my emotions overflow shortly. I fry eggs ceplok. When I cook, I thought about the request for Lily to come to the game basketball. I really want to but I have to avoid. Menhindari something that my heart always intimidation.

I burnt eggs. Never mind, it is a normal life like this. Okay so if I will come tomorrow. Because of how big I close the heart of all this, still can not akan ku forget he's a very subconscious basis.
"Teratai Teratai .. .." very hectic. "It looks like a school I attended Li .." Lily just nod and smile. Highlight it is to the eyes of Berry earlier shout sedari ask support on Lily, kekasihnya. "Oops so I envy you the same Li .."

"Yes I remember screaming Berry yah .. Okeh? "
"I ah males, I will vote abis again."
"Ga segitunya times." Rivalry was immediately started. I regard him. Highlight the sharp eyes stare opponents and bolanya. All they are meneriakan blade. Suddenly appear from behind to place the front and cried, "Tommy Tommy .. .." Yap bener. People are shouting, Iris, Jasmine and Rose.

The match is very exciting and the more exciting. The match finished and the school is juaranya Teratai. My school is always get the Champion in the sport basketball. Then when Tommy took his Cup champion, he membisikan the jury to the ear. Jury draw on the microphone and memberika him. Mouth open. "Selamat siang friends. Thanks to the friends who are dating and give its support to us all, we can win this rivalry. Hmm .. actually there is one thing that I want to inform on friends. "All I include confusion and wonder. "There is one person who attended and I would appreciate people to come here with great difficulty." Roses, Iris and Jasmine smile-smile. "Because if not there may be people, I do not have the motivation to win this rivalry." All is very great. "Okay I will not be long-winded. I feel sorry for the person. "All the people in the game except I yell. "Know how long I've liked him, since friends may introduce him to me." I hit the direct, the statement is not for me. But I am curious, who loved the people kucintai. "Hmm .. in this place I want to know if he is I often steal-steal perspective on it. Okay, to the point aja yah! That person is ... "Jantungku pulse as the gendering beaten very hard. "Rossa, you can forward?" My heart want to jump in a flash. Heart cheer excitement ... but I melirikn to Lily. Surely all that he planned this. So I must come. ...

I came down with a strange feeling. My dream this time, or only the illusion occurs in reality. And after the match this berakhirlah already bercandaan this. I am down and about Tommy. "Rossa, will you be my love?" He knees. He was like what kupikirkan for this. Will Lily have to tell you what kusuka, and I want Tommy to do most things like this? Entahlah. I am just speechless and said, "I do." Overall, such as fairy tale, but it is indeed the case. There are always black and white. Memilihkan God is not what we want but he knows what is best for us and he pilihkan time to indahlah all. Reality in the dream or dreams in the reality of nature. All flow only when we run life